i love jim and pam together, and i found tonight's episode of the office moving.  because jim LOVES pam in a very heartfelt way.  he's not settling; he's not in love with anything other than who she really is; his love is emphatic and driven.  it reminds me of levin's declaration, upon seeing a fleeting image of kitty pass by in a carry, "i love HER."  to have a feeling so forceful yet so true, so innocent and heartfelt.  how wonderful!

The priests kept on saying that Galileo
was dangerous and foolish.
But, as time has shown,
the fool was much wiser.
A certain scientist, Galileo's contemporary,
was no more stupid than Galileo.
He knew that the earth revolved.
But he had a family.

i sometimes find it very difficult to determine what is real and what is wishful thinking.  because if it were real it would be great, but am i projecting what i want to so great an extent that it disguises what actually is.  and would anyone else see it my way?  if not, is it because they are unperceptive and wrong or because i am deluded?  there is no satisfactory way out.  there is no way to know for sure.  sitting and pining away is not a solution.  forgetting it sucks because if you resolve everything in life by forgetting about it eventually life itself passes you by entirely and you are dead.

Do you don't you want me to love you
I'm coming down fast but I'm miles above you