October 16, 2007

• sometimes harder is easier.  by declaring something difficult, it's more palatable to justify not making any progress toward achieving it.  or giving up all together.  but other times it's just hard.  i don't know which this is.

  i weigh 180 lbs today, which is 45-50 lbs less than i weighed in march.  i definitely feel smaller, and i've dropped several pants sizes, but i still have a lot of flab on my stomach, and like, no muscle.  it's hard to remember what my body looked like when i weighed 225-230, even though it was like that for a couple years, so the transformation doesn't strike me as being as drastic as it probably is.  i have 10-15 more lbs of fat to lose before phase 2, the weight lifting/muscle building phase begins.

  i'm not getting any younger.  maybe that's melodramatic for someone who is 26 to say; still true though.  i see this as my last chance to have a good body -- to look young and act young and be young.  there's no need to really despair until you turn 40, but 30 is a warning marker whether you like it or not.  there's a lot of things you should have checked off your list during your 20s, and i'd rather not come up short.

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